And I felt philosophically inspired for the first time in a while. Funny, how the quote comes from Pokemon. And I'd write something mildly sophisticated about fate and free will, what makes us who we are etc, except I'm too tired to think logically. It's a horrendous feeling, when your brain turns into a pile of mush and you take twice or even three times as long to do tasks you can usually complete without much thought.
For example, it's taking me a lot of effort to write coherently right now. I'm not sure I've succeeded. I'm writing half a sentence and then writing a different half sentence, then at some point I will realise how little sense everything makes. I should stop.
There's a lot of crap going on in my mind right now. Life's a complete and utter mess, and though everything is on due course, I realise how little annoyances of life can pile up and conglomerate into one undesirable existence- enough to trouble my pathetic mind. I'm stressed and I don't even know where the stress is coming from.
I was enjoying this evening until I was hit with overwhelming exhaustion. It was my intention to stay up all night and play games, but I now realise it is impossible, because my mind is refusing to stay clear. I will no doubt fall asleep during gaming if I push myself. I should rest, anyway, since I have a cold and everything.
You know that feeling, when you wish for nothing but simple joy in your life... and then you realise you are not a very joyous person? No, you probably don't know that feeling. Never mind. Regardless of the situation, I always need that little bit more. There is some invisible barrier stopping me from reaching happiness, always pushing me back to my realm of moodiness.
The trash pop I'm listening to really isn't helping. Music generally improves my mood... and though I must say I like what I'm hearing, I also must confess that it is nothing more than trash pop. On that note--- Nicki Minaj and Justin Bieber are both hotter than I remember.
I think it's a nice song, despite the fact that it has no meaning. As long as it's pleasant to the ear, it's good music, yeah?
I might be watching this because of her revealing clothes, though.
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