I'm one of those people who mentally rehearse conversations I'm going to have when I feel stressed about having to talk to someone. Except it never goes to plan. I had it all beautiful mapped out in my mind: I was gonna say all these things in particular orders, and I was going to insert the right expression and the right gestures here and there--- and then I met the person and it all went to shits. As soon as I started talking, my mind blanked and words ran out in random order. Then came the dread of realising that rehearsed conversations don't work when you only have the participation of one party. That was soon followed by an awkward silence because the conversation was over if I didn't do anything more--- and my brain was too non-functional to do anything else. I wish I were one of those people who could calmly bullshit their way out of everything, but all I ever do is start grasping for straws and spouting lies, and when that starts falling apart and contradicting itself, I just lie some more until I realise I've essentially fucked myself over and I should probably never speak about the subject again.
Anyway, that was one unexpected incident. The other thing was that even though I have a test coming soon, I had no intention of studying this weekend, and I had imagined myself attending some other event on both days. Then I got an email late into the night, just as I had arranged transport, that the event was cancelled and I was refunded. While glad that I will be able to study for my exam, at the same time I am sorely disappointed that I have no other excuse.
...Plus there's always that shred of discontent when things don't go the way you expect, even if it turns out for the better.
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