I realized that even though I've advanced to tertiary education, my habits are still no better than they were before. I am still perfectly capable of sleeping through a bright and sunny morning, then wallow in perfect complacency for the rest of my daylight hours. When night falls, I start feeling irritated, because that's when I should ideally start working. Except it doesn't happen, and I start feeling agitated instead. I don't know why I prefer to do literally anything else to studying--- I thought I didn't mind studying.
Sometimes I feel as if I had never really graduated--- my workload hasn't gotten any better, it's just that I'm now even less aware of when things are due and what I should be up to, because I no longer have a good unit outline. I used to be able to figure out where I was up to- now, I just look at it and figure that I can sorta do whatever I want except finish everything before exams come around. I have a feeling I'm going to have a breakdown at exam time, over the sheer amount of work which I haven't learnt and haven't covered.
So now, I could be studying instead of writing. But I'm not doing that. In fact, I'm going to leave the house and meet some friends in about 10 minutes....
Definitely not looking forward to exams.
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