It's a fine day outside. The weather has finally cleared. I, of course, chose to sleep the entire morning, and it is now strictly afternoon. I haven't had any breakfast yet, but I am under no motivation to make any despite being somewhat hungry.
I should be doing work--- and I should always be doing work, but as usual I'm not. I've been trying to draw something that I can clearly see in my head, but it doesn't translate on to paper. I wish I were a more skilled artist. Out of frustration, I've snapped the lead of my pencil several times. And before you suggest--- I do not have anger management issues.
I have the biggest urge ever to play games. It's not unusual--- I have a new powerful laptop that can run a lot of things without slowing down, and the keyboard doesn't jam like the one I have on my desktop. Of course the biggest dilemma is always going to be the work due on Wednesday and Thursday, and whatever shit might pop up later. It makes me stressed just thinking about it.
Perhaps I'll go for a walk this afternoon to ease my mind of these mundane stresses. Or I could consider finishing my work early for once, and not having a reason to stress at all.
...If only I were a more... well, if only I gave more of a shit about my studies. I just want to experience "the best time of life" that everyone keeps talking about--- but as far as I can see, it's just work work and more work, all the way until I step into the grave.
WTF am I doing with my life.
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