Night Before the UMAT

I guess I'll want to compare how I felt after the UMAT and how I felt prior to the UMAT. So uh, documenting my feelings now. To be honest I feel completely... calm. My rational self is freaking out: "YOU'RE SO UNDER-PREPARED YOU JUST FUCKED UP THE REST OF YOUR LIFE KISS IT GOODBYE ASSHOLE." I have no idea why my rational self would call me an asshole, but it totally just did. No, I do not have personality disorder, but I do feel like my self-conscious has soul of its own.

Then there's the rest of me, which currently has control over my body. Here I sit in front of the computer, typing calmly because I'm too tired to have an anxiety attack. It's rare that I ever feel so... serene. I'm writing a few words for my psychology oral here and there- I guess I'll have to pull an all-nighter to finish it off for Thursday. How horribly unpleasant. The one-day extension doesn't do me much good.

I look through my drawers, scrambling everything in it hunting for a pencil. I finally find one, along with a sharpener. As I sharpen the pencil my rational self speaks again, "you might want to bring more than one pencil to an exam that's worth more to your parents than you are." I contemplate this for a little, and I decide to find another pencil. Pulling out an old pencil case covered in dust, I manage to procure another. Along with an eraser, too. Sweet.

Then I distract myself with my psychology assignment again- an assignment for which I have to evaluate the merits and flaws of Asian parenting and Western parenting. Of course the terms "Asian" and "Western" are applied loosely here, you can't over-generalize based on the culture, but it's the majority representation. I had fun looking at videos which discuss Asian parents from a rather comical perspective, though I am surprised by the negativity of the internet towards Asian parents. I read a little about the whole "Tiger Mom" thing that's rather controversial- here's the link if you're interested. http://online.wsj.com/article/SB10001424052748704111504576059713528698754.html

I know I should relax and whatnot... but I already feel so relaxed... seeing as how my psychology is due on Thursday, not doing any research now seems almost... sinful. A part of me wish I had never taken psychology this session. It's killing me.


Eh, here, watch the video I've already watched 5 times over. It's a good distraction.