Shatter and Fall

So everything is starting to fall to bits, but somehow I'm still cruising along. I'm behind on my tutorial work, I haven't started an assignment which is supposedly due today but luckily got extended, aaaand my sleeping patterns are still fucked. I get up in the morning, drag myself to school and continue to sleep during the lectures. I tried to stay awake: I really did. But the lecturers are actually horrible public speakers, and I just nap through it all.

I could try to use my time more effectively, and do work when I have time and sleep otherwise... OR I could play a couple more games of LoL. Eh, even though I say that, I haven't been playing that much LoL lately. The-guy-who-is-totally-into-my-room-mate started playing LoL with me, but God he's terrible. I know I shouldn't judge, because I'm terrible as well, but I'm not as terrible as he is, and I'm just starting out. Not that he's played much either, because he said he hated the game; so I don't know why he sounded so eager to play when I turned down his offer for another game.

I can't believe the excuse I used was "when I say I play one game, I mean one game". Ah that's the biggest bullshit ever. Like when I'm up late at night watching TV shows: one more episode means watching until I physically collapse or until the season is over. "One more game" is just another code for "at least 3am; when I fall asleep mid game; or when the Sun rises". It's not that he's so horrible that I don't want to play with him: I do have an early tutorial in a couple of hours... but okay, if he was better I might've been more inclined to play more.

Anyway now I'm still awake trying to finish off my tutorial material at half past one, and it doesn't seem to be that bad. I mean, I feel as if I've understood everything (what's NOT to get?), but when I have to write stuff on it the whole thing just seems excessively painful. I figure I'll just show up to tutorial tomorrow and bullshit my way through like I have for the past 2 weeks.

Solid effort right here. I WILL NOT fail my exams.