Consistency of Blogging

So I'm deteriorating at a rate which is not-that-slow. My life is basically a toggle between tutorial and LoL. I don't remember whether I've slept, I don't remember whether I've eaten, and sometimes I really have no idea what I'm doing, and I just seem to be always walking from one place to the other.

Every time I don't blog for ages, it's not like I don't have time to blog. It's like I've forgotten about it, or because I thought I've already wrote something--- or at least I thought about writing something, but then never got around to it. A lot of the time (like now), I don't even know what I'm saying, and I think I just enjoy the feeling of tapping on my keyboard and seeing words appear on the screen at a fast rate--- so everything is more of a typing exercise as opposed to a writing exercise.

I do love my typing speed. It's one of the redeeming factors about me, considering how much I appear to be sucking at playing LoL.

Every time I feel like I might have gotten the hang or something, or that I might be doing alright, someone just comes along and rolls all over my dignity. It's like, I can see it pressed against the floor, with tyre marks in it. Kinda horrible to visualise.

I guess I could go back to doing what I always do, and bitch about everyone and everything around me. Except now I don't even feel like talking about the people around me, because they're all nice at core despite  some details which annoy the shit out of me--- and well, if I go into any further detail it's like I'm just hating on everyone around me--- which I tend to do but I don't feel like it right now and the world isn't grim enough and I don't feel like they deserve my hatred (yet).

I'll probably get there when I get really stressed studying for my exams.

I uh, just went to an intense study session tonight, and the amount of stuff I didn't know only served to depress me further. How much do you have to fucking study in 2 months? God fucking dammit. After looking at all the stuff I'm supposed to know, I'm just thinking, well, I might as well be the fucking encyclopaedia.

Alright, I'm done. Gotta cut myself off. Saving the rest of my rant for further blog posts. Not that I'll be needing things to rant about, ever.