Having lately realized that I probably play too much LoL for my own good, the fact was reinforced by my exam results which were as joyful as my last assignment. To be fair you can't say I fucked my exams because of LoL, because the first time I played LoL was the afternoon of my exam. Looking at my pitiful ranking, I feel like I should study harder, because I realllly dislike the idea that almost everyone I see knows more than I do, but then I realize my expectations for myself are gone and I don't really want to study.
Maybe if I didn't feel so goddamn sleepy at 7pm I'd be more productive. The only aspect in which I have become closer to a plant is that I shrivel at sunset. I'm buying a heater. I can't stand the cold. Having moved up north I thought it'd be so much warmer- and it is so much warmer, but obviously not warm enough to keep me at a happy temperature.
So my room mate is outside with the guy who clearly likes her, and because I vow not to be a cock block I decide not to join them. Except I can hear bits of their awkward conversation and I'm just thinking, "I don't even need to be a cockblock". Makes me slightly jealous though, because, at least neither of them runs the fuck away when one tries to talk to the other.
Ah, bitter, bitter me.
Anyway, I should probably do more studying so things get back on track. I know I only need to pass, but now that we have rankings, I can't just let myself fall to the pits with a "pass". I don't have to be the best, but I don't like people thinking that I'm just a "commoner", because I've been special all my life and I don't want that to change.
Life's a mess.
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