Casually Skipping Class

I am shivering in the frozen chamber that is my room, and skipping out on my lab practical. While I do loathe my labs (the smell makes me sick and the sight is just disgusting to look at), I generally make a point of attending because I do find them beneficial. Today, however, I just decided that I really didn't want to fucking go, and I'm on my way to failing anatomy anyway so if a fail is a fail, it really doesn't matter how hard I fail it by.

So now I'm just casually reading tutorial material I need to prepare for, and it should be done in like an hour. I could've done it last night and gone to the lab this morning without having to worry about the tutorial this afternoon, but I made the wise decision of playing a fuckload of LoL last night- and while that was fun and all, it was totally unproductive. On the other hand, I am no longer so shit at LoL that the game becomes a chore to play. I have significantly consolidated my friendships with some people through LoL, and it's a welcome change to make friends who spend their time playing video games instead of studying. When I "joined the gang", so to speak, one of them did say to me, "say good bye to your degree". I thought that was a little harsh, because come on I may be bad at anatomy but I'm not stupid, but now that I'm skipping half my fucking classes I can see why it can easily become reality.

And while I vow to not-fail my classes, I am really doing very little to aid that. I'm just covering myself with a safety blanket of "I am a genius so I will not fail", but even I know that's a load of bullshit. If it were up to me, I'd love to spend all my nights going out and socializing (yes I'd even have a drink or two), or I could sit in my room shivering all day and playing LoL. I can't remember how many meals I've skipped playing LoL, but I think that only makes my point about how I haven't been eating properly. At this rate I'm either going to get really fat (because I'll eat more when I'm hungry) or I'm going to lose a lot of weight (because I won't eat at all). At this stage I'm still hoping to stay somewhat healthy, but if I had to choose between the adverse health affects I'd choose the latter, because at least being skinny is attractive in modern society. I was explaining to my room mate last night that while I joke about dieting and losing weight, I'm not actually doing anything to lose weight. Therefore, when I'm not doing anything to lose weight but I actually am, it's bad. Sure it sounds like some sort of magical fantasy where I put in no effort and the weight just falls right off, but when you consider the real life implications of that, all I can think about is whether I have some sort of disease that fucked my metabolism right over.

Anyway, no use worrying about that now. I have work to do, and a fuckload of LoL to play when that work is over.