Moneyz

As you know I've been working since December--- and I've saved up a bit of money that I don't really want to touch, because I want to give that to my brother at his wedding. I went on the internet and searched up "wedding present ideas" and it turns out that the most desirable gift always came back as money. It may seem thoughtless or insensitive or whatever--- until you realize, hey, we live in a material world and money is sweet as.

As a result, I've labelled all of my December income as "untouchable", and I seem to have spent all of January's income on some stupid shit or rather. The number of books in my room is piling up at incredible rate, I have a new 3DS and the various games and accessories that go with it--- then there's my new pocket watch, my miscellaneous spending at the movies, eating out etc. Anyway, it's like I saved half and spent half. So now we're in February and it's dreadful because I realized--- oh holy shit I didn't save enough money for a laptop.

I've been looking at laptops lately, and everything I've been remotely interested in is around the $700 price mark. Then there's the computer accessories that come with a laptop- case, mouse, software, antivirus. I remember my brother telling me that getting a new computer was like getting a new girlfriend- she seems sweet but you go broke buying her accessories. So in reality I'm looking at making at least another grand this month, mostly for the laptop, and the spare money is for emergency situations and general pocket money.

I can see why people worry about money so much. It's annoying not having any when you want something. But a new laptop is no where near as dire and desperate as food and water, and I feel a little guilty thinking that if I bought say, medicine, food and water with my laptop money I could probably save some lives. Except if I think that way I'll just end up in a dilemma of desire vs. guilt, until I finally conclude that I'm a selfish prick and I don't actually care about anyone else--- I want that laptop, dammit.

I figure that I'm probably not a very charitable person in general--- well, it's not like I have the money to be generous anyway, but I'm thinking that even if I did I probably wouldn't donate to charity on a regular basis anyway. As far as I see, as long as I'm not dodging all my taxes, I'm paying back society by working and not being  a burden, and the taxes I pay are helping the poor in some way or other anyway. Even if I do spend money on a new laptop--- at least I'm keeping the economy afloat, right?

I read a piece of philosophy somewhere, and a man said, "it is not shameful to spend luxuriously  After all, it is the duty of the rich to spend, as it keeps the economy alive."

...I quite like that philosophy--- now I just have become rich enough to adopt it.