Sympathy Overload

So given my failure to chase the person I like, my friends are enjoying quite the show. Though it is at my expense, I guess I don't actually mind. Except now everyone and their mother is giving me advice on how to get a date. Goddammit. I know what I'm doing, and I'm know I'm pathetic at displaying affection. However, it does not mean I need everyone to tell me to do this and that. It's like... I don't give a flipping fuck what you think about me, whether you think I should stalk my love to their house or get close to them by being present in every single one of their classes.

I sound more ragey than I intend... It's okay, I'm just irritated. Wouldn't you be, too? My patience wore thin today, and I shouted my confession at a bus platform in the centre of town. Why did I shout, at such an inappropriate location? Because at least there were few people from school there, and because I CAN'T SEEM TO GET CLOSE ENOUGH TO TALK. Omfg, it's like, I take one step forward, they take 1 step forward. Irritatingly maintaining a constant distance.

Move ONE inch closer. I fucking dare you.

You're probably rolling your eyes in front of your screen thinking, "whoa man, back off already. They obviously don't like you, just cool off". I WOULD IF I COULD. Goddamn. I just need a response. A positive reply would make me... ecstatic, a negative reply would make me relieved, because at least now I can walk away. Like I previously mentioned, my patience is gone. I'd be lying if I said "I'LL WAIT FOREVER".

The suspense is killing me.

But seriously people, I DON'T need or want your sympathy. I'm OKAY. Not depressed, not going to kill myself, not going to develop an inferiority complex. Just... calm the eff down. IT'S OKAY IF THEY DON'T LIKE ME. There, I've said it. Just because I like someone doesn't mean they have to like me back. I know how I keep on making jokes about how it's impossible not to like me, but in reality, I U-N-D-E-R-S-T-A-N-D. ...I can accept being rejected...

Life goes on, with or without my sudden bouts of attraction towards someone else.