Happy new year! I've had a totally shit year of blogging, I've realized. Oh well. I won't speak too much more about how busy I am- it's the same story, after all. I wake up, I go to work, I come home exhausted so I eat, shower, sleep. Rinse and repeat.
What's work like? Same old shit, really. Retail is not a fun place to be, people are blergh. Then again, there's not really a job I can find where I DON'T have to deal with people. I wouldn't say human-interaction is my forte, but fortunately for all of us my EQ is high enough to get by. Naturally I've been making a lot of money this year, because of work- aaand I've spent just about all of it.
I've recovered the money I spent on my laptop, so thank God for that. I didn't like staring at the $1500 deficit in my account. I've also been topping up my savings, despite spending a shitload. For Christmas I bought my mother an iPad. She doesn't actually understand technology and I realize over the past few years I've written a few angsty posts about how she doesn't know shit and then she gets mad at me for her not knowing stuff- well, I've gotten over it. I've come to realize that people react how they want and they do what they want and it's a little unpredictable at times. We can try our best but shit still happens and as long as we've done all that we can--- well then, it's literally all that we can, so that's it.
I remember how I sort of lived with "if you don't come first in the end, then trying your best is not good enough" as a motto- and it's a terribly unhealthy attitude to live with. It's probably about time that I accepted my own mortality- as brilliant as I make myself out to be, sometimes my best just isn't good enough and it probably never will be. That's not really something to despair at though, and I don't think it's a defeatist attitude to admit I can't do everything. Coming to terms with my limits, I believe, is the only way I'll ever be able to expand my limits in the first place.
Back to Christmas- I ate a turkey that didn't taste like shit for the first time- there was gravy and potatoes and rosemary and it was delicious. I didn't get much in the way of presents but I can't say I felt too disappointed. I'm capable of making money myself now, and whatever I want, I'll buy it. I have my laptop, I have all my technological gadgets and if I think there's some other material thing out there which will contribute to my happiness, I'll get it. So far I'm pretty well off, though, so I just bought like 3 pairs of jeans and a couple of tshirts for the summer. There's a parka I want but I'll see about getting it. I'm pretty keen on getting myself a suit and some leather shoes though- just something nice and formal. I like dressing in a smart-casual kind of style, but I think it's probably a good idea to leave a suit in my wardrobe.
New years eve- I went out to dinner with some guy who was absolutely atrocious to our serving staff. I thought he was a friend but now I figure I don't really want to be friends with that kinda people. I went and saw The Imitation Game a few days later and that was really, really, really good. I highly recommend the movie. Might write more about it later, we'll see.
Naturally I've updated my music library with the latest JJ Lin and JayChou albums- they're both amazing now that I've stopped reminiscing about their old songs. Give it a listen on iTunes or youtube or w/e. It's worth every cent if you decide to legally download it.
So much to catch up on, but I cbf writing. That's it for what you missed out in my life. I'll try and write my this year- we'll see. Hope it's a good one.
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