I feel like my life has stagnated. I say that because I can no longer distinguish events which occurred last year from events which have occurred this year. It's almost like... time doesn't matter any more. I'm always doing the same repetitious crap, just with different crowds. Last year there was this guy who I was friends with for a while, then he turned out to be the kind of person I just totally do not enjoy hanging around. This year it's pretty much the same- there's this guy who I spent an entire afternoon talking to- it started because I called him over, mistaking him for someone else. Yeah, awkward, right.
Anyway he knew my house-mate pretty well and we'd met before, so the awkwardness resolved itself, but before I knew it he'd wanted to hang out every single week and sadly he's not that cool. I found out a couple of days ago that he asked my house-mate out, which didn't really surprise me, I guess, but it's like, the same shit happened last year, too.
Now if history repeats itself then I'm on course for almost-failing this semester's exams, which is totally not-cool and totally not what I want to do. Unfortunately there's a lot of revision to do- a lot of lectures I didn't pay attention to, and I guess just a lot of stuff I either never learnt or don't remember learning. Whoops.
On an unrelated note: last night I had the worst fucking dream: I dreamt that I witnessed this guy shoot his wife and daughter after she confronted him about him cheating. Then I dreamt that we both went to prison because he said I was his accomplice, and in my dream I hated him so much I found a knife and gutted him like a fish. I'm kinda badass in my dreams, huh? Not really, because then the setting of my dream changed to my year 12 maths classroom, and I was just sitting there, crying that I'm sorry I fucked up my life by brutally murdering someone.
Yeah I should probably take a break soon. Another month and this will all be over. Maybe I just need to live again.
No comments:
Post a Comment