It's a Sunday afternoon- the temperature is perfect. I should go out for a walk and do some shopping before it gets dark though, because there's some groceries I need to grab. I did 0 work over the weekend and I don't even feel bad about it. I feel strangely productive these days- I realized it's actually possible for me to do work BEFORE the last second. I handed in an assignment early for the first time in my life. Well, I handed one in early last year, but that one I did with a friend and he pushed me real hard. This one was an assignment that I did all by myself- it was very short, I started like a week beforehand and slowly, slowly churned out around 600 words. It sounds pathetic, right. I've written 1000 word assignments over a couple of hours, right before they were due, so it must be embarrassing to take so long to write 600 words. In reality, I'm actually so proud of myself- I am capable of getting things done before the due date, I can create artificial pressure for myself, and have enough discipline to write something. Even if it is as insignificant as 600 words- it's like a milestone achievement for me.
It must sound ridiculous to those of you out there who have better time management skills than I do, huh? Well truth is, I've lacked self-discipline ever since I grew to be part of Westernized culture, and even though my parents are really nasty and harsh sometimes that's mostly just them, and it didn't really help me along.
I don't remember why I did no work yesterday- I think it rained and I couldn't go out, so I just felt lazy all day and listened to music. I actually feel more energetic after I exercise- I feel like I can take on the world and go on an adventure- but when I crawl out of bed near noon I kind of just want to hide under my blankets and slide my thumb across my phone. I'd really like a new phone, actually- my phone's getting really, really slow and I'm kind of annoyed by it. Problem is, new phones are kind of expensive, and I'm thinking about getting the new Samsung S6 when it comes out. I reckon it'll be around $1000 just for the phone, so I might lock myself into a contract... that might be cheaper? I don't know. It'll be more convenient for me to just have the phone though- I'll be going overseas end of this year so I NEED to have a different carrier anyway.
Speaking of that- it's going to be an adventure. I'm actually so excited that I'm going to so many places this year. 2015 for me is like the year of travel. Yeah alright so the only place I've been to so far is that little rural town for my work experience- but that's still cool. I know it's like, same country, same state, but just the fact that I'm completely thrown out somewhere, on my own, with no one I know is both frightening and exciting at the same time. Life feels unreal- like I'm in an RPG or something. Have you ever wondered how characters can just leave their home town, travel around and go on quests? Then random NPCs seem to help them out and you start to wonder if that's just a little too convenient... Well it turns out real life works kind of the same way, at least where I live. People are generally nice and trusting, and they're very willing to be your friend. Unfortunately I haven't found a trustworthy companion to share my travels and adventures with... but maybe one day.
Anyway there are a great deal of things lined up for me this year, and I think I'll just feel really good if I manage to get through to December in one piece. Exams and stuff scare me, I'm behind on school work (like I always am), but at the same time I'm actually learning to many things... Not just the whole "medicine" thing, but stuff like, how to talk to people, how to navigate relationships and get places, how to stay healthy etc... Aaand I'm also close to finishing and second song on piano, which is very exciting for me. Life's actually been very good ever since I worked out one day that people like me, I don't actually know why they like me- I don't think I can pin it down to one thing, but they most definitely like me--- often a lot more than I like them. Anyway I'm figuring how to abuse that to my advantage (as you do), but yeah, it feels really, really good to know that people you barely know actually randomly like you and are willing to help.
What a time to be alive. It's a shame I can't stay friends with the people I like though- or at least work out how to avoid situations in which I feel totally unpleasant around them.
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