I can't remember how many times I've tried to lose weight. Despite people telling me I'm not fat (and I kind of agree, in a way), I still want to be skinnier. Mmm, I'm not sure you can call it a self-esteem issue, but it seems these days when you say you want to lose weight people's alarm bells ring and immediately think you're depressed, or you have a terrible body image, and you're on your way to developing anorexia. That's not really the case. I want to lose weight for the same reason I wanted to buy new clothes or get a new hair cut- I want to look better (to myself) and feel better.
Anyway the running thing totally failed this morning when it rained- I mean, I don't mind the temperature being 7 degrees Celsius, but when it rains on top of that it's a bit too much to bear. Never mind that, you're meant to lose weight by changing your diet, right? My biggest problem is the fact that I feel chronically hungry. I just feel like I can eat and eat and eat and then break for 2 hours and come back hungry. It's terrible.
So like, this is probably the 20th time I've decided I'm going to go on a diet? I'm not very optimistic on how long this one will last, considering my birthday is coming up in a few days, and that'll give me the biggest excuse to binge eat. I'm really looking forward to that, actually. I always feel like I have 0 friends until my birthday comes around, and then when I work out the invite list there's actually quite a few people who I'd like to see.
Holidays are the best :)
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