Anyway getting back south was a complete chore- it was lucky I got a lift with a friend this time, but we left at 6am to avoid traffic. It was completely dreadful to wake at 5am and I wanted to sleep so badly but I felt too awkward to do so because my friend kept on talking to me about the kind of music I liked, whether I still play LoL etc.
Then when I came home I found that my sister lost every single one of my xbox games except for Just Dance... I don't know how she fucking did it, but I just want to find my games. I guess I don't really have the time to play games or do anything else other than eat, sleep and work, really, but sometimes I just feel like I get stretched so thin. When I get some time off I almost feel bad about NOT doing something, I have to attend some sort of event or go see some friends or SOMETHING, but I'm such an introvert being with people just exhaust me. Not that I don't enjoy being around people, but even with friends, for the same amount of time spent with a friend, I almost need to spend just as much time alone, to myself, so that I might recharge.
Anyway, it's midnight already, for some reason, even though it feels like 9pm. I'm going to a BBQ tomorrow to see some friends- I don't know why I keep on going to these stupidass Asian BBQs, but my friends are there and since I spend a lot of time at school and I don't get to see them a lot, I want to use any chance I've got to sort of... be with them again. I don't know how you're meant to maintain social relationships when you just don't see people, and you don't even have an excuse to talk to them. Even the "hi how have you been" is difficult, because most of the time the reply is "sorry I have work to do", or just a plain "I'm really busy right now".
I don't think I'm using my break very effectively, but at the same time I'm just really enjoying not doing any work. I should really go to bed though, given how tired I feel. I'll leave you guys with a song I've recently fallen in love with.
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