I had my last serious tutorial today---uh, technically yesterday since it's post midnight. I pretty much have zero work except for my assignment which is due in a week or two, but that's fine because I'm ignoring it. So naturally the first thing I do with my free time is play a fuck tonne of LoL. I thought I kinda grew tired of it, then I'm watching the world championships and I'm like "WOW THAT IS SO COOL, I WANNA DO THAT" and then I try playing the game myself. See in LoL they have this system where you can buy champions with game currency. It feels terrible when you play when you don't really want to--- you feel horrendously bored but at the same time you feel compelled to keep going just so you can acquire that one extra item.
Yeah I think I just have item-acquisition-addiction. It's like how when I played TWEWY I wanted to collect ALL the pins, and when I played Pokemon I finished my pokedex--- it was so much wasted time in my life but so much satisfaction gained... God I wish I could be productive and feel satisfied at the same time.
Ergh, it's getting so late, and I kinda raged at a friend who wouldn't stop hassling me to play a certain game with him. In my defense it's like 2am and he's been really fucking annoying about it, but I guess I shouldn't have raged because now I feel terrible and I kinda realize that he must've wanted me to play that game with him really badly. Man I'm a horrible person.
Should probably go to sleep before I turn into something worse and destroy the world.
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