To explain why I am at school on a fine Saturday afternoon, I think we have to go back to the point where I started watching a lot of streams of LoL videos. Well, it really was just the North America League Championship Series, but I liked following it because my best friend kinda got me addicted, as best friends are bound to do. I suspect that is where I blew all our monthly data, but I really don't feel as if I went through 100gigs on my own... I mean, I do the same at home and I don't even go through 30g by myself in a month. I know I'm kinda sharing internet now, but I don't think my room mate downloads that much on peak... so I have no idea what's going on. The fact is, our internet is once again tragically capped, and I'm at school to leech off the free wifi and watch my LoL videos.
...And I just remembered that I managed to patch my LoL for a 400mb update last night. Still, I didn't think it was that bad... gaaaah, I just have no idea. The fact is, I have to last out the remainder of however long it is until the data limit resets... This is why I miss China- they don't have data caps back there...
I've once again managed to fuck up my sleeping patterns- there was this day where I went completely nocturnal, deciding to sleep in the early afternoon until 8pm and then stayed awake for the entirety of the next day... only sleeping at 4am of the day after... This is why I haven't been blogging--- this one blog a day thing doesn't work when I can't remember when my day starts and ends. My weeks have just felt like a gigantic mesh... I'm trying to finish off work, get everything in place and actually make a conscious effort to go to class.
I'd always thought I was a real try-hard when it came to academics, but eh, apparently not. Slowly I'm beginning to feel that a lot of classes are entirely unnecessary--- and I am just wasting my own money by not attending, it's just that I don't feel as if I'm getting a lot out of it. In fact it turns out I would prefer spending my time sleeping in or slowly eating breakfast at whatever hour I decide to wake...
Ah I need to get out of school. I am learning applicable stuff, but I am just so over things like due dates, assignments and homework. While making a move towards being useful to society, I sometimes wonder whether I'd be having a better time if I followed through with my first "dream job" ever in advertising and marketing, which I wanted to back up with a psychology degree. Right now all I can see is myself being run to the ground by stress, day in day out people wanting to see me, and my dream was to kind of sit in a high up office building drinking tea and casually working away on aoverly priced and useless laptop (yeah, I mean a mac). I suppose I can get there eventually... but I like I said, my life feels like a waiting game, and my patience is rapidly expiring.
It's nice to know that I will eventually have whatever it is that I want out of this life, as long as I keep waiting. Everything's laid out in a nice little path, and if I were feeling a little bit more rebellious perhaps I'd turn down a different road. The thing is, this path isn't even that bad... Everything I've ever wanted is littered along the way, and it takes so little effort, literally all I have to do is to wait it out and... age.
I wish I could fast forward though.
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