Stu-dying

I'm not actually studying. I don't even know what I'm doing. Days have been hard, man. I've had all the time in the world, and I keep on telling myself that I'll start the next day- except I never do and I get out of bed at 3pm. I wish my bed wasn't so comfortable. I suppose I could read textbooks in bed- and in an ideal world that is what I would do--- except this world is stupid and I hate everything.

There's so much to learn, but my motivation is basically in the pits. I think I must be in holiday mode already- and I'm really just savouring the time I don't have to spend working a job or with my parents. It's so nice being able to do whatever, eat whenever and sleep---- never. Jks I eventually do at 3-4am.

To fill in the empty void that is not-studying, I've been playing LoL and watching random videos on YouTube. I also started watching this Korean drama, except I think the main character is a whiny little bitch and needs to pull her shit together. I mean, I get the general gist, she's meant to be the poor girl and the rich handsome men fall in love with her because she's so kind- like a Cinderella story. Except she's not even kind. Or funny. Or clever. There was this episode where this guy who protected her from school bullies got stomped himself, and then she was all *gasp* while he got beat up, then rushed over after the bullies had left. That just made no sense to me, because if she'd intervened her pseudo-boyfriend who was rich powerful and handsome would've displayed the full extent of his white-knight-syndrome and everything would've been fine. That made me conclude that the protagonist was a terrible person. To top it off--- she's not even that hot. If you want to go down the "it's only a drama" route, at least find a hotter girl to play the lead and fulfil my fantasies.

In conclusion, I'm not actually studying. I'm just casually being critical of shitty dramas with my textbook open, pretending to read about whatever I'm pretending to read.