Feels quite classy, actually.
Then I'm painfully reminded of the teachers I got landed with for next session (a six month long session, I might add). English is alright, economics I'm dropping (phew), psychology is fine but chemistry is a fucking disaster. I bombed organic chem with that teacher, and I don't believe it's because I'm bad at organic chem. MAYBE IF I'D LEARNT SOMETHING, IT WOULD'VE HELPED IN THE EXAM. Ergh, on top of that my maths lines are screwed and my free lines are all over the place. Now I have to lie to student services about how I'm going to have a mental breakdown if I don't get a particular chemistry teacher- actually, I don't think I'd be lying. I WOULD go insane. I can't stand watching myself fail something that I could've been good at, if I had a better teacher. Stupid college policy- DON'T PRETEND THAT EVERY TEACHER TEACHES EQUALLY WELL, THIS ISN'T A FANTASY. Some people are going to get screwed over, and I'd rather if I didn't belong in the "people getting screwed over" category.
It is in times like these that I wish I had the money to hire a private tutor- instead of relying on the shitty public education system. Having a qualification in the subject area doesn't mean they can teach- hell, I could be a teacher under our current system. Just learn the content one day ahead of the student, and if they ask me a question, defer them to Google or someone else. SOUNDS LEGIT. Then blame them for being stupid or say that they "didn't study enough" when they fail the exams. Oh, I've an even better idea. I won't even learn the content ahead of them, I'll just tell them to turn to a certain page in the textbook every lesson!
This is you, economics.
Don't get me wrong though, none of them are actually bad people. Sure, some of them don't have very likable personalities *COUGH*ECONOMICS*COUGH*, but I don't think they wanted us to fail (at least I'd hope not). It's just that good intentions are never enough. If my scores weren't necessary for getting me into the uni course I want, I wouldn't give a shit. Don't like the teacher? DROP THE CLASS. Wag a few lessons, sit in the sun and listen to music, Whatever. College could be fun... if my scores didn't count. Well, even then it could still be fun... IF THEY GAVE ME THE RIGHT TEACHERS. Why does nothing ever work out?
Ah, screw school. If I die tomorrow, in my dying moments I would regret almost everything. My life has been BORING. Not that I'm going to drop out, because I expect to live longer than a few days (hoping for another 50 years, actually), but I don't have to make myself miserable for the sake of the long term. Who knows what will happen then? Better keep myself happy now, because we only ever live in the present.
Right, time to think of a clever argument, and details regarding my mental condition, should I stay in my current chemistry class.
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