Almost There

I'm geared up for a second set of holidays and boy I'm excited. Between playing Pokemon Go and reading "what is an abscess" for the fifth time, I've discovered that my life is boring and stale and I should really do something about it.

Pokemon Go has been all the hype lately, and I'm the kid who EV trained his Alakazam for 405 special attack back in the day, by killing what must be generations of spindas. Honestly that is 90% of the memories I have in regards to Pokemon Emerald. The other 10% is split between cloning rare candies and challenging the battle frontier- which was all the hype, but that got waaaay too fucking hard.

RIP Spindas

I'm going to hang out with some friends hopefully tonight and for the next two days as well- good way to start my holidays, I suppose. 2 weeks off is a luxury, isn't it? I got my results back from last semester's examinations. I did fail the course I thought I'd fail, but I did pass overall, so I guess it's fine. I wasn't surprised by how poorly I did- you need expectations to be disappointed, and I don't think I had any. I was kind of sad that I didn't do better in the topics I DID study for though; I read through an entire textbook and only got 78% correct. That's kind of atrocious, isn't it?

Now I know how most people feel, when they put in effort and receive very minimal returns. I liked it better when I thought I was clever- back then I could play games all day and pump out an A+ essay in one night. Right now I still play games all day, but my grades are suffering and I don't have a lot of motivation to do much about it.

I'm just glad that semester was over. I had minimal interest in what I studied and I think a change of scenery this time around will be nice. Not that it's helped my enthusiasm. I received a kind evaluation today for finishing my first rotation- the first time ever anyone has given me an "above average" score since medical school started (it's kind of brutal for a previous straight A student to handle, I tell you). Then only "suggested improvement" I got was "needs to be more proactive", which I think is a very nice way of reminding me I should at least pretend I'm interested, even when I don't give a shit.

I should do something about this seemingly endless negativity I have around me. Maybe a good time with friends will remedy a bit of it.