You may or may not know about how bankrupt I am. I had wisdom teeth surgery and it cost a tonne, and I swear I just need money for everything all at the same time. Basically my laptop is overheating, and I haven't quite gotten my hands on a cooling fan, so it's just shitting itself periodically. I prefer looking into buying a new laptop as opposed to getting this one fixed, because this laptop isn't particularly good anyway and I don't expect it to last me longer than 2-3 years. Which means I need money for a new laptop. Instead of buying another shitty laptop I'm thinking of investing in something decent around the $1500 price mark- that's literally more than double what I paid for my current laptop. I have the money for it- but I was going to use the money to buy a car.
Then apparently my teeth's fucked up enough that my dentist informed me I need to consult with an orthodontist, and the orthodontist advised on getting 10 thousand dollar braces for 2 years. That's like a year's worth of tuition, right there. Basically I'm at the stage where if I can pay for my braces I won't have a car for another 4 years, but if I get a car I'll be paranoid of messing up my teeth. Naturally teeth > car because the inconvenience of travel isn't nearly as bad as the inconvenience of having shitty teeth. It won't be any consolation that I can drive myself to the dentist's if my teeth start aching.
Yet something seems horribly wrong with the idea of taking out all my savings to put into ugly-as-shit braces, while dealing with an overheating laptop and not having a car. I seriously can't figure out what my priorities are. In any case- I'm planning to get braces on some time in September, and afterwards I'll probably look into getting my laptop in Christmas. I was hoping this laptop would last the entirety of my degree, but it probably won't.
Anyway, these recent events have driven me a little crazy, as all I can think about atm is money money money. Naturally I play games to try and distract myself, but I swear in every single fucking game I still get reminded of how poor I am right now. I couldn't play anything on my laptop because I managed to cap our data again- so I resorted to playing my DS. About 5min in I realized I didn't really want to play my DS, because I've lost all interest in the games. I go back to my iPad, and start playing one of my favourite rhythm games- Cytus. About 5 hours in I've managed to clear every single song on every single difficulty, managing at least 90% accuracy for each chapter. Then I see that I need about 6 dollars to unlock extra chapters- and the music sounds REALLY nice- but I didn't want to charge up any credit so I moved to a different rhythm game.
The other rhythm game I play has a competitive nature- you can battle other people online and you win based on streak and accuracy. I was battling this girl and for the first time ever I achieved 100% accuracy on a song (full streak), and I still lost even though her accuracy was 99.5%. Now 100% accuracy is really fucking hard because it means hitting about 600 notes right on the mark, consecutively. I realized the reason I'd lost was because the girl had a pet dragon, which boosts the base point value of every note by a certain percentage, and thus she beat me score-wise. I got really mad because the pet dragon alone costs like $20 and who the fuck pays $20 for a single dragon in a rhythm game.
So uh- yeah this is the story of how I got really pissed off while gaming because people could afford to drop money on virtual dragons while I'm stuck in the real world worry about money for the "big stuff" like orthodontics, car and tuition.
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