Following up from my last post- I did go see Li Yundi play at the Sydney Opera House. He played like a total showoff and I loved it. I suppose it was his concert. I'd never been in the Sydney Opera House for a performance, and I enjoyed every second of being there. It was a shame that I was exhausted from work and couldn't relax as much as I'd have liked- I actually had excellent seats despite buying the cheapest tickets. The view + sound was definitely something I'd pay for again.
So I moved for my job temporarily to the countryside. It wasn't really by choice but I didn't mind too much- they offered free accommodation and I thought, "well, I could do with some fresh air". The house I'm staying in is fairly large- I share with 3 other guys but it's fine, I think they make decent housemates since everyone cleans up after themselves. I am just carelessly spending money again since I moved (bought a new wifi adaptor for my PC and a new electric toothbrush) but I've pretty much given in to hedonism so it doesn't matter.
Gotta chase the finer things in life.
My attempts to improve my life don't always work out. I thought I'd meet some new people and try dating again- I think the date was fine but I just didn't like the person very much. Actually I'd lost interested before I even met them for the date- and I wasn't that impressed over the course of the evening. It's very strange when people like me more than I like them. It almost puts me off, because when it's too easy I lose interest. I know it makes me sound like one of those shitty men who like it when their partners play hard-to-get... but I don't, really. I think it's more because I didn't like them to begin with, and then when I realised they liked me, I didn't find it endearing just mildly repulsive. Like if they weren't into me, at least I'd feel that we were on the same page in terms of not being compatible with each other... but now it just makes me feel like this person as no self-awareness or insight into the situation, and can't even tell that I've lost interest. Totally not their fault, I've been told multiple times that I'm hard to read and apparently I have the same expression when I'm okay vs when I'm fuming with rage... well... I'll take it as a compliment of my self control?
Oh, and the fact that my date smelled like they hadn't showered in a week didn't help. It's weird because we were messaging each other prior to meeting, and they said they were going to take a shower before meeting me... I was feeling mildly guilty because I was just going to go after work... then they rock up and I'm like, "huh, not what I expected, but OKAY, I'll deal with it".
I thought I'd go back to the city this weekend because I thought I'd find the countryside boring- well, there are certainly things I miss (like my piano) but being in the country is not so bad. Much smaller dating pool but I should probably give that up for now... The air is fresh, the streets are calm, and the scenery is breath-taking. Oh, and I finish work on time, which is totally unexpected as well. I've gotten so used to staying back for hours and hours at a time (without getting paid for it, mind you), just to make sure the next day isn't fucking unbearable- and because I was willing to put in that extra time, everything was fine. Now it's like... everything will be fine even if I don't work myself to death... and I love it.
Everything at work is new and foreign; there are quite a few things to adjust to... but I think I went alright for my first day? I'm not sure. Tomorrow will be a bit busier because of the way the schedules work on Tuesdays and Thursdays... but I should still make it out of there on time. I really enjoy not having to drive 30min to and from work each though (though honestly 30min isn't too bad) and there being sunlight when I decide I'm done. The shops are only ever a 10min drive away, and I can buy whatever I want as well.... isn't that lovely.
I want to go out for a walk tomorrow. Maybe eat dinner with some of my new colleagues.
It's good to live a little.
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