It's surprising how fast time passes you by when you get into rhythm. I've spent another few weeks at work, getting into rhythm. Night shifts weren't nearly as bad as I thought they would be, though later on there were some shifts that made me want to cry with stress. I think the hardest part was coming to terms with the fact that I was only one person, and even if I had the answers to all these questions, I couldn't possibly be there for everyone.... well, not on time.
Over my time at work I've learnt a few cool things... well mostly I've learnt how to draw blood with various needles. Not sure it'd become a cool party trick, but if I want to start using intravenous drugs in the future I know how to find all my veins. Whew that was a lame joke. Drugs are bad and I don't approve. Unless you've got no one in your life that you could hurt. Then it's like, whatever man.
Imagine living a life where there was no one you could hurt though. Meaning, nobody cares about you enough to be hurt by your self-sabotage. Is that why they preach "love yourself", because nobody else loves you?
I think I've been awake for longer than I'd like to. I should sleep, I have an early-ish flight to catch tomorrow. I'm going to Melbourne for a bit of a holiday. I haven't been in a few years... and I regret that I always seem to travel there in mid winter, but that's where my breaks are consistently. It'll be nice, I think, seeing some old friends, or just loitering around the city in general. I suspect I'll just eat a lot and spend on a lot of money... but that's fine too. I just want to have a good time.
I don't have wise words to part with or anything... I feel like my time is poorly spent between sleep and work and occasional food. There's not much room for self-improvement, really. Time I otherwise spend with my new friends I made from work. They are some wonderful people, and I am so glad to have met them. I do wish I practised piano some more or drew more on my fancy new tablet. I have all these pretty and expensive toys but I have no one to play with... it's kind of lonely.
I'll be fine though. Let me sleep and give me a break, I'll bounce back in no time.
