Newflash: the conference was lame, my hopes were dashed. I did enjoy myself there, in the company of some friends, but the event was not what I thought it would be. Of course everything was fine in the end; I had an excellent weekend and now I'm on break before my final exam.
It doesn't feel right to have an exam to prepare for at this stage.. I've been on something akin to a month-long holiday, and the low-pressure environment has made me lazy. I need to get into the groove so that I can be better prepared for next year, but I wonder if, in the future, I will lament how I spent the last summer of my youthful university life with textbooks and lecture notes.
I don't have anything better to do though. There's TV there's games but none of it feels special any more. I realised I can continue to do these things while I'm working... I won't be able to binge an entire season in a night, but I can watch an episode every now and again, or while I'm writing notes. Life isn't an all-or-nothing game, after all.
I've caught up with some of my old friends... I'm glad to see them all, but I'm acutely aware of the fact that we're all leading vastly different lives now. It feels so strange... I have such difficulty relating to everyone's troubles, and I wonder when I started to change, and how I've changed. I can't say I like the feeling. I've carved a new path for myself, different to everyone else's that I've known... it's foreign, it's scary, and it's so easy to feel oh-so-alone. It should be fine though... every day I move an inch closer to exactly where I want to be in life... all that I've envisioned for myself, I will have. The good thing about career goals is that if you set them you can work towards it and you can feel the progress.
So I'll just keep marchin', I guess.
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