Recently I've developed the habit of reading the news, I don't know why. I used to consider it "boring" and "something old people did", but at one point I had to read the news so I could make small-talk with people I struggle to form a connection with (so like, the majority of the population). It started that way, but now I'm reading because I've gotten in the habit of it. Except everyday it's like, "TERRORISM", "POLITICAL LEADERSHIP MELTDOWN", "DONALD TRUMP". I can't believe Trump is in his own cateogry, in addition to political leadership meltdown.
When I wrote my last depressing post, that was shortly after the London terrorist attacks. That was frightening, I'm glad I wasn't in London then. There were the Manchester attacks as well- oh and there's just like, straight up war going on in the middle east- but we don't talk about that because we're trying to not deal with refugees. Media portrayal of wartime atrocities might remind us that refugees are human, after all.
Then I read shit like "Trump refuses to visit UK" and I'm like, "can we stop talking about Trump already". Of course we can't, he's the president of the US and USA is a pretty influential country. It's just that I have trouble distinguishing whether news about him is legit news or if it's because Trump is a walking meme. I mean he says things that aren't very nice but I think he says a lot of things that a lot of people are too scared to voice. Trump is like a giant mirror, reflecting the fear and hatred deep-seated in his people's hearts. Most of us like to work through our fears and give up the hate, and work towards a harmonious society- idk what Trump is trying to achieve, but I can see why people chose Trump to represent them.
On an unrelated note, I read this morning that a Christian group were trying to deny the mentally-ill access to their church, saying it was disruptive of their service. I'm not even Christian and I know that's not very Christ-like. I thought Christ associated with those from the lowest echelons of society, and I don't remember John 13:34 saying, "love one another as I have loved you, but stuff the mentally-ill they nasty". I don't even know why I feel offended when I have rejected Christianity. Like I think it's a tad delusional, so why am I upset that those with mental illness are denied access to churches? I feel like I need to advocate for the mentally ill though; that being mentally ill does not mean you are dangerous or disruptive. Indeed, many people at church have outright told me that they are alive because they believe in Christ, that they would have killed themselves otherwise. I don't really care if it's antipsychotic medication or psychotherapy or religion that does the trick; if I can prevent unnecessary losses such as people taking their own lives, I would like to.
For all my disillusionment with religion, I think if Christ was before me in this day and age, and attempted to spread his teaching, I would not have a problem with that. Even if I did not understand his God or had the necessary faith, I do not think I disagree with the teachings of Christ himself. For all the times I have frowned at Christianity, it was because his followers are fucking insane and they are unlike him in so many ways.
Still, those hardest to love need it most. Even through their cruel bigotry, I should learn to love, not because I feel inspired by Christian teaching, but because I want to believe in humanity.
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