Alright so I played another run of Mystic Messenger, the otome mobile dating sim. This time I made it through the whole way and I'm positive I've reached a good ending, mostly because I ended up using a walkthrough. I can't handle this shit otherwise.
I played through the route of "Zen", a character who is canonically good looking, but has like, nothing else going for him. He's the kind who'd I'd admire as eye-candy, but would despise if I ever knew his personality. His occupation? Actor. But he's not that famous yet and not that rich either. Really, he has one of the shittiest personalities in the game, on par with that little bitch Yoosung who dumped my ass on my first attempt to play the game.
Narcissism exists in every one of us, but it characterizes Zen. He won't shut up about how good-looking he is, and my character, Alice, has to keep affirming that "yes how can there be someone as handsome as you" and "it's not just your looks, you also work very hard". Like, even if someone was THAT good looking, there's no cause for me to say something like that when they're already so full of themselves. He's also so... STUPID. Like, how do you live with someone THAT dumb? You know how in movies and stuff you always get girls who look pretty but they're really stupid, and they'll probably end up as the trophy wife of some rich old dude? Welp, Zen is one of those "girls", but he ends up with my character Alice instead, and I'm like "wow Alice you shallow dumbass you guys deserve each other".
Seriously playing this game is killing me on the inside. I mean Zen calls me and says really sweet stuff like "I love you I just want to be next to you, you look so cute I can't control the beast in me" but that just made me go O______________O "wow fuck this kid I feel sexually harassed". It's weird because the game assumes you're in love with the character whose route you're on, but the whole premise of the game is like, "you only have 11 days", and I'm all "we haven't even had our first date and you're putting out. Damn son, you're cheaper than dinner".
Another thing I really hated was related to the character whose route I ACTUALLY want to play, Han Jumin. Apparently his character isn't interested in girls, since he's cold and robotic and whatever. That's fine, I'm sure the attractive part is when he falls for the player, because "she's not like the other girls, she's special". But while I'm on Zen's route, Han Jumin is still cold and detached, so other characters tease him about being gay. I guess it was meant to be humorous, like "hahah what are you gay or something" but it just rubbed me the wrong way.
Like a good friend of mine used to always make jokes like that, about being gay. He's actually a really nice person IRL, and would never want to insult someone for his sexuality, but he doesn't realize making those jokes is reaaaaaaally homophobic. Being homophobic doesn't mean you walk around thumping gay people with a Bible in your hand, it's based on the assumption that being gay is subnormal and something outrageous enough to be ridiculed. Asking things like, "oh what are you gay or something" speaks in a way that sounds ridiculously confrontational and threatening, and really not as funny as it is portrayed to be.
Or maybe I'm just ridiculously sensitive because I'm maladjusted, but I can rightly say that I'm mildly offended by comments made in a game, right???
I guess that's the way homosexuality is seen in Eastern cultures, right now. Nobody is overtly hostile, but they still talk and judge behind closed doors, and it's suffocating in a different kind of way. I thought it's really ironic, that something that is part of your identity, well, MY identity, would be called "sick" and "disgusting" and "unnatural", when it is literally who I am. But when I'm legit sick, rolling in bed from the pain in my body, or wanting to rip my own organs out as I'm filled with self-hatred and disgust, nobody really believes that I'm sick, since that is merely part of my "condition" and "personality".
Why are people fucked enough to believe, that being miserable is part of my "personality"? It's like, I'm an unhappy person, therefore I must WANT to be unhappy, because otherwise I'd CHOOSE to be happy instead. ????Best advice ever given to a depressed person? From "why don't you stop being depressed" to "have you tried being happier instead". Like if I snapped by femur in half I'd kill someone who asked "why don't you stop being crippled" or "have you tried not breaking your bones". I'd murder them with the half of my femur that I'd snapped.
Ahhh this has gone into a massive off-topic rant, inspired by a stupid female-oriented mobile dating sim, because I'm too lonely IRL and too pathetic to make time to meet real people. Or maybe I just like otome games??? I can't decide, this is the first one I've played, and I'm already being so harsh on it. Let me play Han Jumin's route though, I'll make at least one more post on Mystic Messenger, "conquering" the character I ACTUALLY wanted to play for in the first place. I'll tell you of my final opinions of the game then.
Sunday, 15 January 2017
Monday, 9 January 2017
Killing Stalking
I was wasting life on Tumblr (wow please don't judge me for the websites I like to waste life on), when I saw the hashatg "Killing Stalking" (KS) pop up. I was pretty curious, because apparently a lot of people who liked Yuri On Ice, the nice anime I was talking about before, also liked KS.
So I went online and read all the current available chapters of KS. KS is a Korean manhwa, and it was all nicely colored and stuff. Except, it easily makes the list of one of the MOST FUCKED UP THINGS I HAVE EVER READ. I don't think it should be associated with YOI, since the similarity is roughly 2% and the 2% comes from both works being fictional. At least I hope KS is fictional, otherwise I'm a bit scared.
A summary of the chapters so far? Sure. The guy pictured above, Yoonbum, is an absolute crazy fucking stalker, and I believe there was a page that mentioned "borderline personality disorder". Yeah okay people with BPD really fuck up their social relationships, so I was like "aight this guy is gonna be fucked up". And he was.
He likes a boy from his uni, and so he stalks the boy to his house, and essentially breaks in by dusting the keypad and guessing the key combo. Then he goes over to his victim's bed and starts masturbating. That was... uncomfortable to read. Then it turns out his victim Sangwoo is actually a psycho killer! Sangwoo the killer kills girls, uses his basement as a torture chamber, and he smashes Yoonbum's legs with a hammer and locks Yoonbum in his basement. That wasn't even the most disturbing thing about this work.
The disturbing part is where Yoonbum goes full Stockholm (and you never want to go full Stockholm) and starts "loving" Sangwoo. They have a weird relationship, where Sangwoo keeps Yoonbum as a house slave and they jack each other off in a couple of scenes. Except the eroticism is spliced with Sangwoo casually killing a few more people, and Yoonbum being too scared to escape because Sangwoo likes playing with his mind.
The latest chapter was probably the worst part, where Sangwoo thinks Yoonbum has escaped, and he has a full-on meltdown. He then vows to kill Yoonbum when he finds him, before returning to his house and finding that Yoonbum never escaped at all. There's a scene dedicated to Sangwoo quivering and saying "let's stay together forever". I mean, it's vaguely reminiscent of a love story. Except this is almost the most fucked up thing I've ever read, and not really a love story.
If I was younger I'd feel pity for a character like Sangwoo, because he's good looking and fucked up, and it feels like "he just needs to be loved". Right now I'm like "I don't think there's a healthy way of loving a psycho killer, and I wouldn't call what is depicted here love, either".
I hope the author ends this series by having a massive show-down, where everyone essentially dies. Like I believe in rehab but goddamn idk how many years of therapy these characters need before they are okay for society. If the author does intend to travel down a "I love you" and "I love you more" route, I think I'll be more disturbed than I am now. Either way, I'm curious as to how KS will end... it was enjoyable to read, as messed up as it was.
So I went online and read all the current available chapters of KS. KS is a Korean manhwa, and it was all nicely colored and stuff. Except, it easily makes the list of one of the MOST FUCKED UP THINGS I HAVE EVER READ. I don't think it should be associated with YOI, since the similarity is roughly 2% and the 2% comes from both works being fictional. At least I hope KS is fictional, otherwise I'm a bit scared.
A summary of the chapters so far? Sure. The guy pictured above, Yoonbum, is an absolute crazy fucking stalker, and I believe there was a page that mentioned "borderline personality disorder". Yeah okay people with BPD really fuck up their social relationships, so I was like "aight this guy is gonna be fucked up". And he was.
He likes a boy from his uni, and so he stalks the boy to his house, and essentially breaks in by dusting the keypad and guessing the key combo. Then he goes over to his victim's bed and starts masturbating. That was... uncomfortable to read. Then it turns out his victim Sangwoo is actually a psycho killer! Sangwoo the killer kills girls, uses his basement as a torture chamber, and he smashes Yoonbum's legs with a hammer and locks Yoonbum in his basement. That wasn't even the most disturbing thing about this work.
The disturbing part is where Yoonbum goes full Stockholm (and you never want to go full Stockholm) and starts "loving" Sangwoo. They have a weird relationship, where Sangwoo keeps Yoonbum as a house slave and they jack each other off in a couple of scenes. Except the eroticism is spliced with Sangwoo casually killing a few more people, and Yoonbum being too scared to escape because Sangwoo likes playing with his mind.
The latest chapter was probably the worst part, where Sangwoo thinks Yoonbum has escaped, and he has a full-on meltdown. He then vows to kill Yoonbum when he finds him, before returning to his house and finding that Yoonbum never escaped at all. There's a scene dedicated to Sangwoo quivering and saying "let's stay together forever". I mean, it's vaguely reminiscent of a love story. Except this is almost the most fucked up thing I've ever read, and not really a love story.
If I was younger I'd feel pity for a character like Sangwoo, because he's good looking and fucked up, and it feels like "he just needs to be loved". Right now I'm like "I don't think there's a healthy way of loving a psycho killer, and I wouldn't call what is depicted here love, either".
I hope the author ends this series by having a massive show-down, where everyone essentially dies. Like I believe in rehab but goddamn idk how many years of therapy these characters need before they are okay for society. If the author does intend to travel down a "I love you" and "I love you more" route, I think I'll be more disturbed than I am now. Either way, I'm curious as to how KS will end... it was enjoyable to read, as messed up as it was.
Thursday, 5 January 2017
Mystic Messenger
Mystic Messenger is one of the newer otome games that hit the market, and I tried it out based on a friend's recommendation + personal curiosity.
An otome game is like a dating sim, but for girls. Every other character is a handsome male of a different "type". Mystic Messenger has several characters you can "conquer", one of whom is female, so I thought it was interesting (does that mean MC becomes non-hetero-exclusive, or can I play as a guy???)
So yeah the first thing I tried to do in this game was see if I could set up my character as male. Well, I couldn't. I guess this game isn't prepared for its queer audience, after all. Hahah. So I named my character "Alice" and I kept playing, because Alice sounds like a nice name, right?
The gameplay of Mystic Messenger is actually immensely annoying and time consuming. Your phone notifications will trigger on the clock, because an in-game character has messaged you. If you don't reply back in time, you can't progress your relationship with that character, so I became a bit of a phone slave towards the end. Except some of these conversations literally trigger at 1am and 3am, and I'm like "wow I'm awake cos I'm playing Pokemon Sun, but wtf is up with this game design? I'd be asleep if I wasn't on holiday".
So the way you reply in this game is via programmed responses, you choose A or B. It was frustrating at times, because I felt the dialogue options I got given were a little brain-dead. Like, as if I'd have reason to say that! The choices were very polarizing, too, it's like, "I hope your cat gets run over" to "I want to suck your dick". Well, those aren't actual choices, but you get the gist.
The characters were also massively unrealistic, but since it's catered towards a "typical" girls' fantasy, I guess that's the appeal. There's Han Jumin, the best looking guy there (imho), who is like a corporate CEO. Rich af, but incapable of human emotion. Then there's a hacker character nicknamed 707, who is a little eccentric (not in a way I found appealing, however). Kim Yoosung is a kid in uni who entered with a good score but is now addicted to a game called LOLOL. That one hit too close to home, I was like "wow I don't like the parallel". But does that mean people find kids addicted to games attractive? Because whew I'm still single and damn if you're into that shit, you don't have to go for a fictional kid, Vane's right here for you baby.
Oh, back to the characters. There's a movie star called "Zen" who is good looking but that's about it. No other attribute. Then the female character, I actually thought was a guy when I started playing, and I was like "oh the capable assistant, hard working kind, me likey". She's the secretary for Han Jumin, and she's overworked but doesn't know how to say no.
One cycle of the game goes for 11 days total, so it could take close to forever to finish this game. Probably actually "forever" for me, since I couldn't even run through one cycle. I reached "bad end" on day 7, which meant I didn't even finish the story. Apparently I didn't garner enough affection from the characters, so I obv fucked up my dialogue choices somewhere. God I suck at picking up guys IRL and I can't even get guys on a dating sim. How socially retarded am I???
The thing I'm mad about though, was that I was trying to get on Zen's route (I couldn't get Han Jumin because his route requires premium currency to unlock), but then I somehow ended up in Yoosung's route. That felt terrible, because like I said, Yoosung's just a shittier version of myself, and fuck I'm already the irresponsible game-addicted one, there doesn't need to be two of us like this. Anyway to avoid reaching a "bad end", I essentially changed all my responses to "yeeee I luv muh boi Yoosung", and apparently that still wasn't enough and he dumps my character on day 7.
Like what the actual fuck I got dumped by a fictional character I didn't even like. Goddamn. Like Yoosung you little bitch, I didn't say "I believe in you" or "It's fun talking to you" because I liked you, I was just saying it so the game can go on. How dare you dump me when I'm trying so hard to progress in this stupid fucking game. I'm sick of your shit, Yoosung. You'll never get a girl to like you when you're addicted to shitty video games and you act like you're 13.
Okay that's enough ranting for one night. Maybe I need a walkthrough for this game so that I don't bad-end again.
Still, fuck you Yoosung.
An otome game is like a dating sim, but for girls. Every other character is a handsome male of a different "type". Mystic Messenger has several characters you can "conquer", one of whom is female, so I thought it was interesting (does that mean MC becomes non-hetero-exclusive, or can I play as a guy???)
So yeah the first thing I tried to do in this game was see if I could set up my character as male. Well, I couldn't. I guess this game isn't prepared for its queer audience, after all. Hahah. So I named my character "Alice" and I kept playing, because Alice sounds like a nice name, right?
The gameplay of Mystic Messenger is actually immensely annoying and time consuming. Your phone notifications will trigger on the clock, because an in-game character has messaged you. If you don't reply back in time, you can't progress your relationship with that character, so I became a bit of a phone slave towards the end. Except some of these conversations literally trigger at 1am and 3am, and I'm like "wow I'm awake cos I'm playing Pokemon Sun, but wtf is up with this game design? I'd be asleep if I wasn't on holiday".
So the way you reply in this game is via programmed responses, you choose A or B. It was frustrating at times, because I felt the dialogue options I got given were a little brain-dead. Like, as if I'd have reason to say that! The choices were very polarizing, too, it's like, "I hope your cat gets run over" to "I want to suck your dick". Well, those aren't actual choices, but you get the gist.
The characters were also massively unrealistic, but since it's catered towards a "typical" girls' fantasy, I guess that's the appeal. There's Han Jumin, the best looking guy there (imho), who is like a corporate CEO. Rich af, but incapable of human emotion. Then there's a hacker character nicknamed 707, who is a little eccentric (not in a way I found appealing, however). Kim Yoosung is a kid in uni who entered with a good score but is now addicted to a game called LOLOL. That one hit too close to home, I was like "wow I don't like the parallel". But does that mean people find kids addicted to games attractive? Because whew I'm still single and damn if you're into that shit, you don't have to go for a fictional kid, Vane's right here for you baby.
Oh, back to the characters. There's a movie star called "Zen" who is good looking but that's about it. No other attribute. Then the female character, I actually thought was a guy when I started playing, and I was like "oh the capable assistant, hard working kind, me likey". She's the secretary for Han Jumin, and she's overworked but doesn't know how to say no.
One cycle of the game goes for 11 days total, so it could take close to forever to finish this game. Probably actually "forever" for me, since I couldn't even run through one cycle. I reached "bad end" on day 7, which meant I didn't even finish the story. Apparently I didn't garner enough affection from the characters, so I obv fucked up my dialogue choices somewhere. God I suck at picking up guys IRL and I can't even get guys on a dating sim. How socially retarded am I???
The thing I'm mad about though, was that I was trying to get on Zen's route (I couldn't get Han Jumin because his route requires premium currency to unlock), but then I somehow ended up in Yoosung's route. That felt terrible, because like I said, Yoosung's just a shittier version of myself, and fuck I'm already the irresponsible game-addicted one, there doesn't need to be two of us like this. Anyway to avoid reaching a "bad end", I essentially changed all my responses to "yeeee I luv muh boi Yoosung", and apparently that still wasn't enough and he dumps my character on day 7.
Like what the actual fuck I got dumped by a fictional character I didn't even like. Goddamn. Like Yoosung you little bitch, I didn't say "I believe in you" or "It's fun talking to you" because I liked you, I was just saying it so the game can go on. How dare you dump me when I'm trying so hard to progress in this stupid fucking game. I'm sick of your shit, Yoosung. You'll never get a girl to like you when you're addicted to shitty video games and you act like you're 13.
Okay that's enough ranting for one night. Maybe I need a walkthrough for this game so that I don't bad-end again.
Still, fuck you Yoosung.
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