Well I didn't start real work just yet... it's mostly orientation stuff, getting to know people. I'm just having a difficult time adjusting to the fact that I'm being paid to stay back every day so I actually need to stay back til that time. Every night I come home and I feel like I'd be okay if the world ended then and there, because it's not like I have effort to do much else. Luckily there was a long weekend and I survived, but it was a struggle.
It makes me worried- if I struggled this much through orientation, how much more is real work gonna suck? Or maybe I'll enjoy it, idk. I'm pretty positive that it'll all work out, but I think I'm mostly just... scared that I'm staring down "the rest of forever", though it may not necessarily be true.
I made some new friends though. That's been great. I finally finished moving into my new place, then I went out with my new friends and we had a bit of fun. We went to a national park and established that yes, I am physically unfit and I really need to exercise more. My body's still aching from the workout... it's kind of embarrassing to describe.
On an unrelated note, I'm still bleeding money like you wouldn't believe... I've furnished my home, and now I'm thinking of buying a $300 vacuum cleaner and a digital piano... My life just feels really... empty without the music.
I guess I better stop bitching about work (that I haven't started for reals yet) and make some money...
Sunday, 28 January 2018
Friday, 19 January 2018
I don't want to start work
So I went to check out my new work place and get some paperwork sorted before work officially starts on Monday. I was pretty much shitting myself as I walked through the building... Everything just looked newer and taller and more technologically advanced than we had it up North. Then the receptionist gave me the coldest reply I'd ever received when I asked her for directions to the office... and I was starting to feel a bit... uneasy. I mean she looked like me when I used to work at KFC, the "if my life were to end now it would be bliss" face, as you talk to the next person in front of you.
Anyway I lugged all my things and moved closer to work... but the place I'm renting hasn't been sorted out and like.... it's a nightmare imagining having to clean and set up furniture and just get everything ready by the evening... ahhhh it's a total disaster. I'll be so happy when everything's sorted and I can settle down for a bit. I've been haemorrhaging money since moving... wtf is stamp duty and why is it so expensive? Furniture, too. Furniture prices seemed reasonable until you realised you have to buy all kinds of furniture at once... then it's like ????????????? what.
Despite my frenzy and concerns over my financial stability, I am 2 clicks away from buying an iPad pro and the apple pencil that comes with it. I just... want to draw, so badly? I can think of so many reasons why I shouldn't buy it, and only one for why I should buy it... and that one reason is "because I want to". Weird how that has the same weight as everything on the other side, ranging from "you already have an iPad" to "you literally have to draw from your savings to afford this iPad".
Ah, needing money but not wanting to work. The life.
Anyway I lugged all my things and moved closer to work... but the place I'm renting hasn't been sorted out and like.... it's a nightmare imagining having to clean and set up furniture and just get everything ready by the evening... ahhhh it's a total disaster. I'll be so happy when everything's sorted and I can settle down for a bit. I've been haemorrhaging money since moving... wtf is stamp duty and why is it so expensive? Furniture, too. Furniture prices seemed reasonable until you realised you have to buy all kinds of furniture at once... then it's like ????????????? what.
Despite my frenzy and concerns over my financial stability, I am 2 clicks away from buying an iPad pro and the apple pencil that comes with it. I just... want to draw, so badly? I can think of so many reasons why I shouldn't buy it, and only one for why I should buy it... and that one reason is "because I want to". Weird how that has the same weight as everything on the other side, ranging from "you already have an iPad" to "you literally have to draw from your savings to afford this iPad".
Ah, needing money but not wanting to work. The life.
Saturday, 6 January 2018
A New Beginning
Happy New Years....
Although I'm writing this about a week late. I've spent the past month in (almost) absolute bliss. I saw most of the friends I've wanted to see, and I had fun spending money, going on holidays and playing too many games for my own good, probably.
I still haven't shaken off my mobile game addiction and I continue to play almost religiously. Whoops. The most productive thing I've done is probably sort out my accommodation for this year, since I'm going to be working full time. Oh my God the prospect scares me to shits. Work. Responsibility. Then on top of all this my never-ending goals to lose-weight-get-fit-(but maybe not too much weight)-read-more-find-love-study-harder it just gets a bit... too much to think about. Naturally I've decided to bury my head in the sand and "worry about it later".
Oh, I read Hannibal and Hannibal Rising at a beach house. Yeah I know I see like a loser, reading books when I'm at the beach, but it's really hot during the day time and I don't enjoy getting roasted by the Sun. I'm lucky I tan instead of burn, but that only slightly lowers my risk of skin cancer. Anyway, I'm glad I found those books at the beach. I've seen the TV show Hannibal in all its glory, but the novels were something else. I actually like the TV show much better (not just because I found the actors more attractive), but I felt as if the characters improved on the given source material. There were also some aspects of the novel which I found a bit... old fashioned. Like how uh, when you read Sherlock Holmes and there's a chapter that's randomly racist, and you realise it wasn't considered racist in their time, but it disturbs you now. Despite that, good read. Glad I read something.
I was actually quite surprised at the ending of Hannibal... I kind of envisioned a Hamlet-esque showdown where everybody ends up dead, but it wasn't that at all. I'd call the twist "refreshing", though I've read criticism claming that the ending undermines certain characters' development. I simply felt those characters arrived at one of their many character conclusions. I don't really want to spoil it in case someone reading this decides to read it some day. All I can say is that I wish they'd renew more seasons of Hannibal the TV show, because whew it's a good story.
Well, here's hoping that 2018 brings good things.
Although I'm writing this about a week late. I've spent the past month in (almost) absolute bliss. I saw most of the friends I've wanted to see, and I had fun spending money, going on holidays and playing too many games for my own good, probably.
I still haven't shaken off my mobile game addiction and I continue to play almost religiously. Whoops. The most productive thing I've done is probably sort out my accommodation for this year, since I'm going to be working full time. Oh my God the prospect scares me to shits. Work. Responsibility. Then on top of all this my never-ending goals to lose-weight-get-fit-(but maybe not too much weight)-read-more-find-love-study-harder it just gets a bit... too much to think about. Naturally I've decided to bury my head in the sand and "worry about it later".
Oh, I read Hannibal and Hannibal Rising at a beach house. Yeah I know I see like a loser, reading books when I'm at the beach, but it's really hot during the day time and I don't enjoy getting roasted by the Sun. I'm lucky I tan instead of burn, but that only slightly lowers my risk of skin cancer. Anyway, I'm glad I found those books at the beach. I've seen the TV show Hannibal in all its glory, but the novels were something else. I actually like the TV show much better (not just because I found the actors more attractive), but I felt as if the characters improved on the given source material. There were also some aspects of the novel which I found a bit... old fashioned. Like how uh, when you read Sherlock Holmes and there's a chapter that's randomly racist, and you realise it wasn't considered racist in their time, but it disturbs you now. Despite that, good read. Glad I read something.
I was actually quite surprised at the ending of Hannibal... I kind of envisioned a Hamlet-esque showdown where everybody ends up dead, but it wasn't that at all. I'd call the twist "refreshing", though I've read criticism claming that the ending undermines certain characters' development. I simply felt those characters arrived at one of their many character conclusions. I don't really want to spoil it in case someone reading this decides to read it some day. All I can say is that I wish they'd renew more seasons of Hannibal the TV show, because whew it's a good story.
Well, here's hoping that 2018 brings good things.
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